So tomorrow I have my first fall show of the season. As always I am NOT ready. I may be,but always feel that I am not when the first show of the season starts. I have not even started on my "wanna, wanna, wanna" do things. I have been watching Project Runway and I have become very inspired and creative. I have sketched out a few things, but haven't actually gotten to do them yet because I am still "working" on other stuff. I am not complaining. I love my "work". There just aren't enough hours in the day to do all i want to do.
We are moving 3 hours away. I have my security here. my friends, an outlet for my creative side and people that i connect with. now that goes away and I have to start over. On the bright side, there is a stronger artistic community there, but also more competition. I would be around more artistic minds; individuals that would understand my quirky, creative, and focused side.my creatively driven personality. When i am in an area with high concentrations of like-minded creative folks, it really feeds my creativity and to be honest my spirit. Though I fear leaving the "security blanket" that i have knit here, I know that this chapter is complete and I have to start another one. I have windows of opportunity that are opening up, but i feel like there is a lead ball holding me down. I followed God's instruction and made preparations for this moment, but I am still here, leaning on God, trusting him, but not myself. I think that i am my own lead ball. This lead bal